and then the sun came out.

I wish there were words to explain the feelings I experienced this week. It just shocks me to have everything I have ever believed shaken. The people you thought you knew, are just not who you thought they were, the trust you built up only to have it dissolve into nothing, and your emotions being thrown around back and forth till you wake up feeling exhausted like your thoughts were running marathons.

But then you take a moment, you sit back and just breath. The world stops spinning and your thoughts become clearer. You realize that what people do cannot affect you if you don't let it. No one can make your choices. And then you feel a warmth within your heart knowing everything you knew you knew is true, and all you can do is hope and pray that someday the ones who disappoint you will have a change of heart.

I cannot be more grateful for my testimony in the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I know with every fiber of my being that I have a purpose here on this earth, and everyday I will strive to become what my Heavenly Father created me to be.

Mike has been so helpful in these trying times and never lets me forget how much he loves me. He is such a good example to me. Saturday was hard. But I knew I had to shake it off and appreciate all that I have. Mike and I cleaned the house and and decided the best place to be at that time was in the temple. So we went.

What an amazing place. Just walking in the building, I could feel the sadness and hurt melt off. I was filled with joy and could not describe this transformation happening within me. I felt alive and well. I felt extremely blessed to know what I knew then. After a beautiful time there, Mike and I decided this would be our Valentine's Day tradition. There is no better way to demonstrate your love.

Like stated in D&C 45:7, "For verily I say unto you that I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the light and the life of the world—a light that shineth in darkness and the darkness comprehendeth it not." And this I know with all of my heart as that Saturday afternoon the darkness went away and the sun came out in Logan, if only for a brief moment, but it shone as if to say, "have hope and faith that there will always be light amongst the darkness."

I know he hears my prayers, and I am grateful for his warm embrace during trying times.